moody.. just like the weather in KL at this moment

After a dreamless night, i woke up with two swollen eyes.

I turned on my handphone, and there was another msg in my inbox.

Its from yafu, he said:

你不可能讨好全世界的人... 做事情要对得起天地良心最重要... 

不是别人说的就对，自己心里要有一把尺来衡量对错黑白... 

世界上的人你还看得少呢~ :)

Obviously, he sent this to me because he called me last night and i cried when i told him what had happened. He was so furious and I know well he will have some ways to solve the problem, yet, i dont want him to take action to anyone of us. He is like a big brother, who will help u to gao dim everything when u have problem.

I replied him and dint continue to sleep. 

I turned on my computer, signed in msn.

There are a mail from Jia Ann, untitled; 

another mail from Alvin, disputes in organising event.

I dont know how to describe my feeling when i read those mail.

Funny? because Jia Ann's mail sounds very sarcastic?

Guilty? somehow, i will feel like its me cause the whole problem ( if there is a problem)

Satisfied? because they eventually take action to that fellow?

Honestly, I feel bad.. Really bad.. Even until now, I am still feeling sorry to everything and everyone. I have no idea what will happen after this, i know it will not be a good one, of course.

Maybe that fellow will come to me and scold me in msn or face to face?

Maybe he will quit his post and so his threat is finally attained?

Maybe...?

Sometimes, I dont know why those people will choose me when they have anything unsatisfied or complaints. Then when i talk to chairperson about this, because i hope the problem should be solved by someone who has the authority to talk, he said i use chairperson to 'press' or threaten him. Last night was a miserable night, that is not the first time though. I do tried to communicate with him in a very polite way although a lot of them say i am stupid in doing so, I hope we can coorporate and achieve the same goal, which is make the finale perfectly ends. I tried my best to discuss everything with u, accept your idea and even fulfill your unreasonable demands. I really dont want to start any quarrel with u because i treat u as my friend. And the most important is, I know how i will react when there is a dispute. I wont throw u any rude words, I wont slap u or give u a punch into your face, and i definitely will not shout at u. But i will cry and keep quiet. This is my weak personality i know. And i am learning to cope with it and i WANT to voice out how i feel. 

Jia Ann has written a 4 pages message in 11 font size and single spacing in microsoft word. This is actually the second letter he typed. He typed the first last weekend, he planned to send out to every committee members but end up he just sent to Alvin. This weekend, after 6 days, he typed another longer letter. I know how he feels, and i know he already cant bear with them. Whats unexpectated is, Alvin is the one who voice out now. No rude words, no sarcasm, everything straight to the point, this is our chairperson, ALVIN. 

Alvin, thanks to stand by my side and so sorry to cause such problem to all of us.

Jia Ann, thanks for your letter, 看完了真的觉得很痛快！haha..

And, dont worry.. I am ok with it..